Demographic Characteristics
Amongst the 237 AGYW respondents aged 15–24, the mean age was 17.4 years. Of these, 99% (N = 235/237) self-reported to have been assigned female at birth. Amongst the AGYW respondents, 97% (N = 227/234) self-identified their gender as female, with two identifying as transgender, and three as gender-variant. Most, 86% (N = 202/235) of AGYW self-identified as heterosexual/straight, 4% (N = 9) as homosexual/gay/lesbian, and 7% (N = 17) as bisexual. For reporting of language spoken at home, the top three languages were isiXhosa (39%, N = 92/237), isiZulu (25%, N = 59/237), and siSwati (15%, N = 35/237). Overall, 18% (N = 41/232) of the AGYW reported to have had a pregnancy.
Emergent themes in the qualitative data included AGYW narratives and perceptions of depression, stress, and suicide. In the accounts of AGYW, poor mental health, including depression and suicidal risk were linked to sexual/romantic relationship challenges, early pregnancy and child-bearing, parenting responsibilities, experiences of violence/abuse, HIV status, and lack of emotional support. Suicide risk emerged as a salient theme and was associated with discovery of pregnancy or an HIV positive status, low self-esteem, and a lack of anyone to trust or confide in. In general, AGYW voiced a need for increased access to support, and additional information on mental health.
The findings presented below are arranged into key thematic areas that emerged during analysis. Illustrative quotations are excerpts from English transcripts or translations; in brackets are details of the respondents’ site and sample group. In selected excerpts, original language terms/words have been included in italicised brackets for the purpose of illustrating the exact words/language used by participants relating to key concepts associated with mental health. The rationale for this is that often concepts such as "depression” have been framed in a universal/Western way, without attention to contextual specificity. Where qualitative research uses translations, there is a danger of the original meaning and concept getting lost in the translation process, as translators seek to find ‘equivalent’ terms [26].
Suicidal Ideation
Suicidal ideation emerged as salient theme across provinces, despite there being no specific question probes relating to suicide. According to AGYW, issues such as self-harm and having suicidal tendencies were common amongst their peers. One participant expressed hesitancy using the diagnosis of ‘depression’, but described self-harming and suicidal ideation: “There are girls, I don’t want to say ‘depressed’, but who do things like self-harming, some attempt suicide” (15–18 years, EC). AGYW made links between low self-esteem and self-worth, and lacking a sense of belonging, with suicidal ideation: “Most girls… have a low self-esteem… feel as though they don’t belong in this world. That’s why people commit suicide. I used to have that… mentality… suicidal thoughts because of people” (19–24 years, NW).
Illustrating the link between SRH and mental health, feelings of emotional isolation leading to suicidal ideation were exacerbated in the case of HIV positive or pregnant AGYW who feel unable to access support: “This thing of suicide is becoming popular now, even here at school… especially when girls are pregnant or HIV positive, because they can’t share it with anyone, they don’t trust anyone” (15–18 years, WC). The sense of having no one to trust or confide in, and seek emotional support from, resulted in AGYW feeling emotionally isolated, fostering suicidal ideation: “We don’t share our sexual and personal life things… We keep it to ourselves, then some of us commit suicide (sizigcinia kuthi, abanye bethu ke baphela sebezibulala)” (15–18 years, WC, isiXhosa). Suicide was linked to feelings of isolation after an HIV positive diagnosis: “(When) the nurse told her that is she is HIV positive, she didn’t know who to tell… so she took a rope and hanged herself because she had no one to talk to” (15–18 years, WC).
The discovery of being pregnant was also described as a difficult emotional event. AGYW in the older age group, 19–24 years, described personal experiences with suicidal ideation in this situation: “When I found out I was pregnant… that was very difficult, I even thought about suicide… it was tough (kwabanzima kakhulu, ngangicabanga ngisho ukuyibulala, ya kwaku tough)” (19–24 years, KZN, isiZulu). Additional links between mental health and SRH were apparent in the narratives of suicidal ideation in relation to the stress of teenage pregnancy, compounded by fear of HIV: “As a young pregnant girl… the challenges you face… maybe you will find out that he (baby’s father) is HIV-positive… Those are challenges that can be a problem and you end up committing suicide… A better solution is to kill yourself (Yizona ngqinamba lezo ezingaba inkinga ugcine usu… usuzibula… i solutions kuncono ukuthi uzibulale)” (19–24 years, KZN, isiZulu).
Respondents suggested that due to social stigma attached to teenage pregnancy, pregnant AGYW fear being judged and gossiped about: “Pregnant girls feel sad… some even contemplate suicide (azive efuna ukuzibulala)… because of hearing unpleasant things about their life being spoken by other people. (15–18 years, WC, isiXhosa); “Pregnant girls are teased, and then they drop out of school, they don't finish… here at school… we gossip about each other in the toilets” (15–18 years, WC). Parents’ attitudes towards their daughters’ romantic and sexual behaviour prevented AGYW from accessing support: “Like most girls, I got pregnant at an early age. Some girls resort to committing suicide (ezibulala) or just run away from home because they cannot face their parents” (15–18 years, WC, isiXhosa). Getting involved in transactional relationships, compounded by a sense of shame and fear of social judgement, also led to depression and suicidal ideation: “Most girls in the community, they get into those (transactional) relationships, to a point that it damages them… they end up being depressed… ‘Why are you doing this and that to me in front of people?’… they end up like that and they end up trying to commit suicide… ‘he embarrassed me in front of people, tomorrow how will people look at me?’” (19–24 years, NW).
Stress
The emotional ‘burden’ of teenage pregnancy was described as a key contributing factor to poor mental health: “They say having a child is a good thing, but as a teenager it is a burden, it’s difficult to cope” (15–18 years, EC). Financial, material and relationship insecurity added stress to pregnancy: “the baby’s father has denied the baby, there will be stress of how you are going to support the baby, because the (social) grant is not enough” (19–24 years, KZN). Those AGYW who had experienced unexpected discovery of pregnancies described their stress related to being rejected by families, kicked out of school or from home. One participant described her concerns after finding out she was pregnant in Grade 10: “I was confused and didn’t know what to do… (I told my boyfriend) my dad is strict… I will be chased away from home” (19–24 years, KZN). Those AGYW who became pregnant with casual sex partners, or who were not in committed relationships described the stress and unhappiness they experienced. One young woman described how she wanted to terminate her pregnancy but was told it was already too late to do so, and how this unwanted pregnancy caused her stress: “I had stress… I only realised when I was 4 months 2 days that I was pregnant… if I had realised this earlier, I was going to do an abortion… then I asked the doctor ‘Is there any other way I can do an abortion?’… He then said ‘It’s either you die… I will not allow you to risk an abortion’…[sigh] I was not ready to have a child at that time… I knew how my situation was… the guy I was dating, I was just dating him for fun. I did not see myself having a child with him, or to have future with him… that was why I was going to abort this baby… I did not want the child… everything failed… I did not eat, I had stress… the one who impregnated me was staying in a shack” (19–24 years, NW).
A lack of emotional support from partners/fathers of children also contributed to stress and depression amongst young mothers: “Where does the stress go? …to me… I’m always watching this child, he cries the whole day and I don’t know why… I’m holding him, gave him his bottle, he continues to cry, I don’t know why he is crying… you call him (baby’s father)… (but) he doesn’t take any action… I become depressed and it affects the child” (19–24 years, NW). Being a single parent was described as difficult and stressful: “If you are a single mother, there is nothing nice… (you) have love for your baby but that’s it. Everything else is not nice… It’s difficult to raise the child” (19–24 years, NW). The feeling that former dreams and aspirations for the future were shattered by unexpected pregnancies heightened feelings of hopelessness and depression: “It’s not going to be dark forever, things will be right… but what I can say? …to be pregnant unexpectedly is not good at all… life is not good… Especially if… you had plans and maybe life does not go the way you had planned… I am speechless… for me now, life is not good… it’s not good… tough times…” (19–24 years, NW).
Emotional Support
Lacking a supportive social environment negatively impacted on mental health and self-esteem: “When people are discouraging me… I get very sad… I’m trying… I’m telling them that… and they say ‘You cannot do that… you’re weak’… it makes me angry, but… I don’t defend myself” (19–24 years, NW). Some AGYW suggested that they tried to cope without sharing their problems with anyone: “I keep my problems to myself… I talk to no one… I keep to myself and own it, I don’t make my problem someone else’s… if ever I have something troubling me I will keep it to myself… eventually I will be fine (ndizade ndibe right)” (19–24 years, EC, isiXhosa). The lack of emotional support for dealing with traumatic life events, including grief over the death of a loved one, was present in AGYW narratives: “When I think about something that happened in the past my heart becomes sore (intliziyo yam ibabuhlungu)… (like) when I think about my mother… she passed away… There is nobody (I talk to at home)… I don’t feel free talking to them… I don’t speak to anyone at school (either)” (15–18 years, EC, isiXhosa). A minority of AGYW were vocal about receiving emotional support at home: “I know I am loved at home and they show me that they love me because they care for me and stuff” (19–24 years, EC).
Sexual and romantic relationships with violent and controlling partners were also described by some of the AGYW, who ended up living in a state of fear: “If I have made friends… and we want to go out as girls, then he (boyfriend) will refuse and beat you. Even when you make a minor mistake… he will beat you, and you end up afraid… you now live in fear… When happy, it doesn’t last for long… sometimes he will take out his anger on you even when you did nothing… but you continue to love him even when friends try to talk some sense to you, but you will continue staying and loving him because you are afraid of him and not at liberty to do your own things” (19–24 years, MPU). Refusal to have sex with a partner also led to violence: “sometimes, it happens that he wants to sleep with you, and you don’t want to, then he gets angry and he beats you” (19–24 years, KZN). Those AGYW who had experienced intimate partner violence explained their reluctance to disclose to her family and friends: “In most times, you keep quiet and when they ask you ‘what happened, why are you hurt?’ you just tell them that you got hurt, you turned and bumped into a wall” (19–24 years, KZN). Experiencing violence negatively impacted AGYW self-esteem and self-worth: “It has to do with how you perceive yourself, he sees me as not good enough then maybe you will find that boyfriend that hits you, he is the one that you want to stay with because you think where else will you find another boyfriend? …when he hits you that means this person does not see any value on you he beats you, abuses you… physically you will be injured obviously because that will hurt you… and she will think that she is not good enough” (15–18 years, EC). Pregnancy increased AGYW dependence on partners, even when they are violent: “My friend is pregnant… (her boyfriend) beats her… In her pregnancy the guy did not care for her and he was beating her saying the child is not his” (19–24 years, EC).