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Growing up, I myself do not remember ever feeling like anything but an “outsider.” Something deep in my stomach told me, somewhere stretched across the ocean was a piece of myself. I do not remember the exact moment that my family’s history began to unravel. People always asked me if I was related to this Crane or that one, and I would smile and say No. As I grew older, it became more irritating, “No, none of my relatives live near here,” I would all but shout to the inquisitor. I wondered where all of my relatives were. I always knew my name was different from my grandmother’s, but I did not know why. Something was amiss, but when I attempted to ask my father, his face paled and I retreated. My paternal descendants, I discerned, were twilight zone people. I always felt as if I belonged in another place, that there was a dormant world embedded in me via my grandparents and father. Shreds of stories leaked out in whispers when I was young, until my grandmother started to toss out one story at a time, until she broke down and confessed to me that she had written a book. It took me some time to persuade her to retrieve the manuscript out of her basement, where it had been hidden away.
History took hold of me and never let me go thereafter.
—Simone de Beauvoir
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See Frank Bajohr, “Arisierung” in Hamburg. Die Verdrängung derjüdischen Unternehmer 1933–45 (Hamburg: Christians Verlag, 1997). Bajohr analyzed hundreds of files and came to the conclusion that 1,500 Jewish businesses in Hamburg had to be sold under pressure. This process of exploitation has been well documented for Hamburg. Most Jewish businesses in other cities were “Aryanized” as well, since it was a nationwide law.
Lucy Dawidowicz, The War Against the Jews 1933–1945, Tenth Anniversary Edition. (New York: Bantam, 1986), p. 65.
Supposedly, Carl is the enigmatic “Dr. Cohn” mentioned in The Warburgs (pp. 475476). Fritz Warburg and Carl August Cohn knew each other and Carl is almost certainly the man who was paired up with Fritz by the prison guard. See Ron Chernow, The Warburgs: The Twentieth-Century Odyssey of a Remarkable Jewish Family (New York: Vintage, 1994).
See Herta Bahlsen-Cohn. My German Lessons, 1915–1939. (New York: Vantage Press, Inc., 1995).
Claudia Koonz. Mothers in the Fatherland. Women, Family Life, and Nazi Politics (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1987), p. 259.
Maria Lugones. “Playfulness, ‘World’-Travelling, and Loving Perception.” In Feminist Social Thought: A Reader. Diana Tietjens Meyers, ed. (New York: Routledge, 1997), pp. 148–159. Quote from p. 156.
Primo Levi, The Drowned and the Saved. Trans. Raymond Rosenthal. (New York: Summit Books, 1988), p. 21.
Paul John Eakin, Fictions in Autobiography: Studies in the Art of Self-Invention (NJ: Princeton UP, 1985), p. 252.
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Crane, C. (2000). The Spirit. In: Divided Lives. Palgrave Macmillan, New York. https://doi.org/10.1057/9781403982186_1
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