Manic-Depressive Psychosis

  • Michael Rose

Abstract

It felt as though I had somehow logged into the spirit of the age. Clouds gathered in great vortices, blizzards swept in from the blue in late April, and the winds rocked buildings as solid as Oxford. I thought and believed I might be Judah Maccabaeus riding my gorgeous old motorcycle Bucephalus around London, England, and Northern Europe to the Gates of Hell. In fact more like Don Quixote upon Rocinante, inspired by visions of Dulcinea serving in a sandwich bar, to take on the world in expiation for some obscure sin I had committed but could no longer recollect. Or Spartacus maybe, with Doc HoUiday at the OK Corral. The confused details as a matter of fact are quite funny but perhaps out of place in a text intended for serious academic colleagues. So I will herein limit myself mainly to the aftermath and thoughts of recovery, though I am now back more or less in the condition in which I started—in a locked psychiatric ward with access to a word processor. Hence, it it clear that whatever hesitating credit I give to the beneficial effects of lithium carbonate in the management of manic-depressive psychosis (or whatever we choose to call it), I remain intermittently as crazy as I ever was. Though the place is congenial, I don’t want to convey the impression that I like it or am prepared to subside into a prolonged state of quiescence, or settle for a mess of pottage. I want more, much more. To be free to run and play tennis, for a start.

Keywords

Vortex Dust Depression Europe Lithium 

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