Panting furious screams five-years-old sirens crashes semen mommy and daddy tearing each other apart savage werewolves in the night

I grew from a wasteland

Toxic decay, nuclear

Pollution, and a famine.

He pressure

Cooked me into an object of beauty

Unbreakable

Bend like copper sheeting, never broken

But reshaped, repurposed for his pleasure

Gaps in my brain try to forget and remember

Memory fused with fear

Remembering is physical therapy

Fingers curl from the pain

It starts at the tail of my bone

A deep rumbling ache

Stand naked in front of the mirror at 21

Flashbang nightmares salty sweat

Lick my lips to taste the dread

Books on sex tearing at stitches of trauma

Erotica to reconstruct my pleasure

I sleep naked with volition now

Body is safe exposed, defenseless

Vulnerability can not be violated

I ask. He consents. We love

With tongues teeth and hearts